two words i need to get more comfortable with are a)god and b)dad.

new york is so expensive. i could move there. but i'd have to work constantly just to afford rent. then i'd be stuck there. never bettering myself. but damn it sure would be a blast.

why am i so unambitious suddenly? I will sleep at any point in the day if I don't have an obligation. Maybe it's because winter is coming? i don't know but i don't like it. i feel sick. i need something. maybe i need some meth. yeah, METH! [jk]